Like over 4 months....
So. Since this is an insight to my thoughts and to music I guess I'll just let the juices flow...
I'm writing this as I'm laying in bed at 1am, about to go to sleep late to wake up early... maybe.
The best part of this night is the crickets chirping out the window, it's like a strange eerie and yet soothing sound. Lately it seems like life has been so rushed and so crazy, like I'm in the eye of a tornado that was created by a small child spinning a spoon in a glass of water. At times the spiral is spinning and spinning and the cup runs over and then other times the child is tired so the spoon is lazily spinning along and it seems that my music taste has adapted to that style. Currently my favorite song is a toss up between Raise your Weapon (Noisia Remix) by Deadmau5 and Scary Monsters and Nice Sprites by Skrillex but both of these songs are crazy dubstep heavy beat techno. It seems that lately all I can do is get lost in the heavy strumming and intricate beats, the mind bending synthesizers and the scant singing. But then in the times where I'm just spinning lazily I've been listening to a lot of classical? I'm not sure what to call it but just songs that have deep and soulful stringed instruments and passionate piano, songs that pull out your soul, wrench out your deepest emotions and leave you raw inside (I know that sounds painful, but the good kind of life changing pain)... lol
but I guess that's the kind of music you would expect me to listen to these days.
It seems like whenever life gets crazy you just want to feel, feel something bigger and even greater than yourself to know that school isn't everything, that your life wasn't solely made for Physics or engineering Statistics.
It's been wicked encouraging though to see how constant God is through all of this and yet how He is the driving force for half of the madness. :)
Lately, I've begun to see a lot of the things that I desperately need to change in my walk with God and with those changes come crazy hard challenges. Like the challenge to give up all control and just trust in God...
man.
Just thinking about doing that is scary, yet why would I want to control my own life when I can barely do my Physics homework AND the God that created the whole world (including Physics) wants to look out for my best interest.... so, really? Why do I even want to be in control?
But... this post is getting too philosophical for my brain and I think I need some sleep... haha
This was a bit stream of consious and may have been a bit much... I'll try to make it lighter next time...
but remember... it could've been worse :D
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